Would you be able to have sex with your partner of 3 years if he had?
That's so sad, fear of the disease overriding your feelings for your partner. I'd hate to be either of you. I honestly don't know how I'd react in that situation. I'd like to think I'd react differently than you have, but I'm unsure that'd be the case. Hoping you still care for him. Poor guy. Maybe you should look for a support group, for family/friends of those with HIV.